Saturday, August 8, 2015

Recovery: What It Is and What It Isn't

What Is Recovery?

Wanna know what the grande ol' mystery to Recovery is? The answer we all search for when figuring out if our husbands are in Recovery? Yes?

This may be hard for some to accept.

You ready?





HONESTY.



Im sure we've all thought our husbands were honest at one point or another.

Honesty? Easy peasy right?

But do we fully know what it means to be completely honest??

Let's start with definitions, because you know I love me some good definitions. :)

Honest:    
            Truthful, sincere, free of deceit and fraud, unpretentious, morally correct, virtuous, candid, frank, open, forthright, ingenious, straightforward, plain speaking, matter-of-fact, upfront, aboveboard, genuine, honorable.


Recovery:
        A return to a healthy functioning state of mind, strength, or health
     "A voluntarily maintained lifestyle characterized by sobriety, personal health and citizenship.” - The Betty Ford Institute
&
     “Recovery from addiction is a process of change through which an individual achieves abstinence and improved health, wellness and quality of life.” - Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA)
&
     “A process of overcoming both physical and psychological dependence on an addiction with a commitment to abstinence-based sobriety” - American Society of Addiction Medicine"



 How Do We Know if Our Husbands Are in Recovery?


He will be completely honest to God, himself, his wife, and therapist/sponsor/church leader etc. Not just once. Not for a few months. For the rest of his LIFE. Going back to Addict Behavior every once in a while shows the presence of the Addiction Cycle, even if they have not yet physically Acted Out. Addict's must be out of the Addiction Cycle in order to get INTO true Recovery. This process could take anywhere from 1-6 years.

RECOVERY IS NOT PERFECTION


Recovery is not, however, a one stop process. Recovery is NOT perfection. Its NOT about never making mistakes ever again. I see it more as a continual straight line forever towards progress...while sober.


Honest and CONSISTENT Recovery behaviors include, but not limited to:



  1. Completely sobriety. ZERO Slips, Relapses or Acting Out.                 Acting Out - Intentionally seeking out any erotic and sensual stimulus, even if "accidental" at first, this includes waking up in the middle of wet dreams and continuing, or accidentally coming across pornography but choosing to continue looking at it. DEFINITE lines of acting out: Pornography, Masturbation, Infidelity, Emotional infidelity, Inappropriate relationships with opposite sex, Chatting, Flirting, Sex ad browsing, Forcing anyone to have sex (yes, even if it’s your own wife), & Massage brothels. For definitions of pornography, addiction, etc., go HERE
  2. PREVENTS Slips, Relapses, and Acting Out by being honest and reaching out to others beforehand.
  3. VULNERABLE : Talks about feelings, thoughts, and experiences.
  4. Gone through the basics of the Repentance Process (although, is the repentance process ever REALLY done?)
  5. Responsible for his actions, regardless of the consequences.
  6. Can admit when he makes a mistake or is wrong, and apologizes without prompting.
  7. Can self parent and use "thinking brain"
  8. Empathetic - Gives you the space and closeness you need and shows that he understands the hurt which he has caused you and loved ones.
  9. Open to feedback
  10. Can listen and hold your pain.
  11. Respectful of your Boundaries, body, & feelings.
  12. Progressively trying to better himself, his quality of life, and his family's quality of life.
  13. Thankful
  14. Easy going
  15. Humble
  16. Meek
  17. Submissive
  18. Accountable
  19. Lowly of heart
  20. Close relationship with God; Christlike
  21. Shares his successes in recovery efforts.





How do we know if our husbands are NOT in Recovery? 

He will not be completely honest with God, himself, his wife, therapist, sponsor, church leader etc.

Recovery is NOT :


  1. Acting Out in addiction
  2. Lying
  3. Minimizes
  4. Defensive
  5. Blaming and redirecting. 
  6. Manipulative
  7. Controlling
  8. Is in the Addiction Cycle
  9. Refuses to be vulnerable
  10. Uses fear, guilt, or threats to get what they want.
  11. Rationalizes
  12. Prideful and egotistical
  13. Escapes the pain and guilt to make themselves feel better in the moment. 
  14. Runs away, hides, or isolates from issues o and uncomfortable situations.
  15. Won’t talk about their behaviors, feelings, thoughts, and fantasies.
  16. Acts like a victim and seeks sympathy, or tries to get others to take sides.
  17. Evasive and disrespectful of others personal Boundaries.
  18. Discloses information only when asked.
  19. Is caught or reported by someone else, rather than admitting to or confessing inappropriate behavior.
  20. Criticizes
  21. Gets angry without discussing feelings afterward
  22. Moody "Jekyll & Hyde"
  23. Resentful
  24. Vindictive
  25. Overly critical 
  26. Selfish
  27. Pretends or convinces others there are no problems, that they are taken care of, or are no big deal.
  28. Makes empty promises
  29. Refuses to attend 12-Step meetings or to see a therapist.
  30. Self sabotages, self punishes or is self loathing
  31. Not willing to put in the time or effort to fix problems.
  32. Continues to put themselves in situations where they can be tempted ("Yellow light" behavior: unsafe websites, unsafe friends/family, unsafe co-workers etc)
  33. Uses other addictions— such as food, alcohol, drugs, video/online games, over-working, spending— to avoid dealing with real problems. 
  34. Wants you to be okay with their addiction and feels cheated if they can’t continue in them. 
  35. Wants life to go back to the way things were before getting caught, rather than improving and growing. 
  36. Gets upset when you don't believe they've magically changed.
  37. Tries try to make quick-fix deals and apologies just to have the issue dropped.
  38. Not living standards in accordance with religious beliefs.



Why it's important to Define Recovery


The definitions of Recovery, Slip, Relapse, and Acting Out can mean completely two different things depending on the person, therapist, sponsor, or 12 step group.

I believe addicts (and wives) NEED as much clarity in this process as possible, and if EVERYONE has different definitions then it leaves huge room for miscommunication and can be dangerous for an addict and most importantly, their loved ones.

For example,

If my husband looked at porn for 5 min and then later only someone who believes relapses/slips are OK in Recovery -- "I had a slip today. Do I need to restart my sobriety?" --.......guess what they would tell my husband?

"No you don't need to reset your sobriety. Slips happen. Your still in Recovery and doing great!".

And then guess what wrong misconception my husband would gather from that? :) He'd think:

"I don't need to reset my sobriety for looking at porn for 5 min. Its OK. Im still in Recovery and doing great".

Do you see the problem here? 😉

He simply would assume his definition of Recovery and Slip was the same as everyone else's and vise versa. And we all know addicts are notorious for easily misunderstanding stuff. That is very dangerous and detrimental to his healing AND is dangerous and a threat to his family's safety.

You NEVER want an addict to ever misunderstand that its OK to look at porn for 5 min and can still remain IN Recovery.

Thats not to say that an addict can't progress and do really really well while working TOWARDS Recovery. My own husband has progressed significantly and his acting out and addict behaviors continue to become farther and farther apart. He's gone from acting out every few days, to every 6+ months, to hopefully never again. Things went from 95% tension in my home, to only 5%.

That's GREAT!

But it's not Recovery yet. And that's OK.

Recovery is about complete honesty. Its about doing whatever it takes to stay sober and continually having that progressing change of heart for the rest of their life.

Whatever it takes is whatever it takes.

"Thus we see that, when "they" were brought to believe and to know the truth, they were firm, and would suffer even unto death rather than commit sin; and thus we see that..they buried their weapons of war for peace."  Alma 24:19

6 comments:

  1. This is a fabulous list , definitions and general all around great post ! :))
    BUT do you actually KNOW anyone in this level of recovery ?? It feels almost ( but not completely ) better to just give up and think , well it could be worse .

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    1. I'm in Recovery. Andrew Pippanne from rowboatandmarbles.org is in Recovery. Rhyll Crowshaw's (author of "What can I do about me" (?) husband is. There's many people is Recovery. I have a few friends who's husbands are in Recovery

      Are we all saints? Heck no. We still have our quirks and character defects. I still get anxiety sometimes. I still have hard days (kids drive me BONKERS). I looove to bite my nails. My house is a mess. I easily get hyper focused on stuff. I struggle going to sleep early. I can be a flighty person. I love to be home. I space out easy. I eat ice cream every night (although totally not a negative thing ;) ). Sometimes I wish I could roar at my kids like a lion.....or smash everything like the hulk. Maybe both. And I am ALWAYS late to EVERYTHING.

      Im far from perfect. But I am honest, I am constantly shame busting (it's become automatic, like riding a bike), and I will own my mistakes and be vulnerable about how I feel. Any truly recovering addicts I've come across all have those same traits (honesty, vulnerability etc).


      Never give up!

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    2. Very glad you personally know so many in true recovery ! That is great !! I only know very few men who MIGHT not be addicts . Most are liars , hypocrites and emotionally abusive to their wives . Its my world maybe , but that is the truth . They have too much of an image to protect to admit to much .
      I am even farther from perfect !! Perfect is not even slightly on my horizon ; its the things in the list I would love to see just a few of these for 48 hours , no kidding . NO responsibility , NO honesty , only more lies and defensiveness . Psycho behavior . Pretend Pretend Pretend then all his problems magically disappear .

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    3. Damn image.

      I totally hear ya....


      Sadly I know of only MAYBE one or two men who I know are for sure NOT addicts. (I'm saying 2 because there's gotta be at least another one somewhere in my life, ...right??).

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  2. This is a great list!!

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  3. If people were just honest about marriage and I knew 3 years ago that every single "righteous" man on the planet were addicted to the objectification of women, I'd never have married in the first place. I am so tired of this world and I would rather die alone.

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